Trust

I'm fucking confused and dreaded. Who can I trust? Why the fuck must trust always have problems here and there? Why must 1 make up stories to make the other feel better but behind his back, he's hurting him? It seems that the 1 person I could talk to, uh.... now I gotta stand back and think twice before saying anything to him or believing whatever he says.

Anyways this is my 1st post after a very long absence. Very sorry. Just felt like I can post something at the moment. Doesn't matter if anyone's reading or not. But I hope someone's reading it cause atleast I'll feel like someone's trying to understand where I'm coming from.

I've been Happy, Sad, Angry and Confused so now really isn't a best time to mess with my emotions... I've no idea why I get angry or sad easily, like a child. I feel like a child. A child forever naive to the real world, always thinking that there'll always be rainbows and sunlight after every storm. Sometimes I'm right about that, other times I'm not... oh well, gotta move on.

Oh God help me!!!!!!!! what's the truth, please show me the truth, even if it pierce my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!! OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHH NNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NIGHTMARE's back

Greetings my fellow readers... I'm back from my long departure. Juz felt like postin' though I do not have any exciting story to tell abt.

Recoving from sore eyes, man it's had to deal with, especially when it gets itchy, can't stop rubbin' it. Had to wear shades whenever I go to avoid contact with other ppl. But now it's getting better.

Been to sch doing my FYP except for a few days cause my eyes were a pain in the neck. Today I did'nt go to sch 4 the same reason. Well nxt week sch open and teachers day is coming up around the corner and I wish all teachers out there Happy Teachers Day. Can't wait to go back to wsss. Gd ol' memories still fresh and clear in my head. Best and worst times of my life. Huh.... Anyways that's all I have to say so til' nxt time. Rock On.

Luxuria, Invidia, Acedia and Gula.

You might be wondering what does the title mean, unless you know Latin. It actually Latin for 4 of the 7 sins that I am or are. Luxuria(extravagance), commonly known in the 21st Century as Lust, Invidia(envy), Acedia(discouragement) a.k.a Jealousy and Gula (gluttony). I'm gonna be honest with my readers so yeah I do have desires of women but I don't go to the extend like Quagmire(Family Guy-the one with the big chin). I do get jealous sometimes and feel have low self-esteem issues. And I eat more than I should sometimes. I'm still trying to improve myself and control my sins as I am aware that I'll be judged by them when my soul no longer exist in this world.

So yeah please don't judge me differently from the rest as I know that each individual as their own few of the seven deadly sins. Peace!!!

Apology.

I've lost my way. I've taken the wrong turn and now I'm lost. I'm as alone as ever. The funny thing about it is that I hate, but I like it sometimes. Is not that the people around are not trying to help me, it's just that I do not want to trouble them as they got their own problems as well. I don't mind helping others but I'm most uncomfortable if like anybody helps me. I don't know why but I'm like that.

And also I wanna apologise for things which I am most disgraced by. For not realising my mistake and denying it even if there's witnesses and evidences. To the people I still consider as my friends but don't really talk to, I'm sorry if I've done anything wrong to make you not communicate with me and to those who's work depends on me as their leader, I'm sorry for not living up to the expectations of a true dedicated leader who talk the talk but never walk the walk.

I AM SORRY!!!!!!!!
PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!

18-1

I'm now proud to say I've live my life for 18 years now, and dissapointed to say that I've stayed in a hospital for more than a day once, hahahaha. Anyways what better way to end my school holidays than my birthday ah, when I'll have so much fun and then the next day is "Wake Up Early and Go to School Day" but look on the bright side, I've escaped the "Birthday Bash". Hahaha but not so lucky for Rohzaini cause his birthday is on tuesday so sharpen your knuckles and install steel toe on your shoes and get ready to rumble. I'm juz kidding. Hope you guys have enjoyed your holidays and have spend it well. So I'll see you guys on Monday. Bye and Rock On!!!!

???

Ahh do you smell the stench of holidays getting stronger and stronger as each day goes by? You feel you wanna make an official countdown and wait for the final 10 seconds mark and count it to the last second with all your friends? If any of you don't feel like doing any of these, you're a doochbag. These were done back in the day when we were little and naive and all we wanted was to not go to school. Well things as usual change.

Now as we grow, we learn to slowly accept the harsh terms and acceptions that life has given that and we get through it everytime we come across it. That's just life, you enjoy the good things first and then when you understand more, the harsher things kicks in. But don't worry, like life, everything will be fine. I was reading a blog article with the subject about us humans and the sutuations around us. I have to say I totally agree with you, Nas. We were given Earth, the ultimate home where we can live peacfully and have fun during the day and sleep comfortably at night and how do we repay. Humans created cars which end up polluting the ozone layer Carbon Monoxide, factories pollute the air as well which causes acid rain and not to forget, even hairsprays could pollute the air with Chlorofluorocarbon(CFC). That's not the end, It's just the beginning. Oil spills by ships, shipwrecks, plastic bags, tin cans, tissue paper, waste paper. All by us, humans. There's still time, why not do something about it, there are a minority who have done their part. Now waiting for the majority to follow.

Phew! these words came from my frustrations. Now my mind is tired due to that same frustrations. So till next time. And pls tag my tagboard, what would be a tagboard without any new tags.

Lost into the Unknown

It seems like my old habits are coming back. Just as when there were smiles and sunshine all around me, gray clouds and negativity had to ruin everything. It has been a pattern in my life that the bad doings last longer than the good no matter how hard I try. Life is full of mysteries and this is one them which I simply don't understand.

Listening to Master of Puppets as I personally think it's an awesome and inspirational song for those who are into playing heavy metal. If i could, I would start school all over again, just to make things right. But that wouldn't be fair for the others and it's not gonna happen so I have to make very good use of the time I have. I just feel so down lately, been disappointing a lot of people as well. Myself included. Feeling insecure, untrustworthy, unreliable, unsociable.

i hope everything will be alright.