Lost into the Unknown

It seems like my old habits are coming back. Just as when there were smiles and sunshine all around me, gray clouds and negativity had to ruin everything. It has been a pattern in my life that the bad doings last longer than the good no matter how hard I try. Life is full of mysteries and this is one them which I simply don't understand.

Listening to Master of Puppets as I personally think it's an awesome and inspirational song for those who are into playing heavy metal. If i could, I would start school all over again, just to make things right. But that wouldn't be fair for the others and it's not gonna happen so I have to make very good use of the time I have. I just feel so down lately, been disappointing a lot of people as well. Myself included. Feeling insecure, untrustworthy, unreliable, unsociable.

i hope everything will be alright.