Matthew Segal

I want to take this time to dedicate this part of this post to all of my friends and classmates. To those whom I have hurt or made them unhappy. I did'nt realise my mistakes and now that I have, I sincerely apologize. "I'M SORRY". I hate hurting anyone and making anybody's day like shit but I end up doing it without realising it. I should think twice before doing or saying anything next time.

Deepavali came and left. Although I don't celebrate it, I'll definately remember it for the rest of my living life. Yesterday afternoon my brother and I were watching television. My brother was just about to make his way to the DVD player when his collapse to the floor. I thought he was lying down on the floor but I just when to check it out, just in case. His face showed an expression of a normal kid who's going to cry. I asked my brother "What Happened?". After that, he started shivering and I saw his eyes rolled to the back of his head. I panicked like fuck cause' right then and there I realised he's having fits. I called my mum and she panicked more than me. My mum was hugging him so tight as though God was about to take his soul and my mum was standing in His way. I and my mum tilted my brother to the side as that was what we were supposed to do if anyone had fits. After that I stood right by him, in shock and I was about to cry but I held back my tears cause' I hoped that this day will not be my brother's last day. If I can make it alive 4 times, so can my brother.

All that lasted less than 5 minutes and my heartbeat finally beat at a calmer rate. Paramedics arrived and took my brother to the hospital and so forth. Only hospitalised for a day, juz like me. Ironically he was in the same ward as me when I was hospitalised for appendix, juz different bed. That night, my siblings and I were supposed to have dinner at a old friend of my sister's house but I did'nt go cause' it's just not the same without my brother. That whole incident keep playing in my mind for the whole night. Even now as I'm typing this post, it keeps repeating. I love my brother to the extend that if anything were to happen to him, I'll beg to the Lord to take my soul instead of his. That's how much I love him.

To my brother, Matthew Segal
Take care of yourself and I always got your back!!!